woohoo

no more going to SAFPU anymore...muahahaha. i am really tired...

kaoz...again...

...cuz the typing interface for blogger seems to be gone all hay wire. on a lighter note, i passed my RP course! hahahaha... big deal ok! imagine being stuck in oven like conditions for a week, and being frozen and bored to death for another...passing out from SAFPU is like opening the gates of hell for us hungry-ghost-RPs ...muahahaha. i miss my desk at ammo base...hahahahaha!

urgh...

i think blogger has some deep shit problem...for my blog at least...i cannot view my damn bloody blog page!

hurhurhur

yes...i feel rather lost today...dunno why too. oh ya, i dun curse you anymore, cuz i can come back to watch da chang jin in time...lol.

curse you...

...i am only left with the last 20mins of da chang jin to watch cuz of u...

wow...

...another week has just passed. last monday seemed so long ago. urgh...i joked with my course and RP mates on friday that i would be volunteering myself to go DB instead of SAFPU for course, cuz, afterall, both places drive u crazy. another stressful week to go thru...mentally stressful i think. ok, let's hope that next week will pass me by faster.

basically what keeps me going through the week is pretty simple, going back to play sim city rush hour, flipping thru my d'artise: digital painting book and going back IN TIME to watch da chang jin. spent a day walking the boardwalk of macritchie reservoir yesterday...saw those monkeys that are abundant in ammo base camp too. very cute...ha. oh yeah...i want to play with animals. too bad i live in a pigeon hole.

ok, now i need motivation to do the things i want...no more po po ma ma already. shit, had enough of those days. urgh.

Random thoughts of the week

honestly, after a week in RP course has mentally drained u of wadever thought you have left in your brain, allowing u to only fathom wad you are going to do when this blasted course ends. of course, the course isn't really bad or wad, but it's mentally stressful. lectures are the new torture device SAF has come up with. eespecially utilising a certain sergeant. my fren has came up with the suggestion of burning a CD of his entire lectures, broadcasting it on loudspeakers whenever we are under siege by enemy forces or, as that sergeant might pronounce it as "animal forces". wth. new tactics endorsed by SAF i suppose. or even better, reduce it to the frequency of animals, broadcast it, make the animals(enemy's animals too) run amok and attack everyone in sight. ok, i think the last comment was rather lame.

enough of Retarded Police course, it's boring! another week to endure.

speaking of which, i guess they should rename us as retarded police since the course would pretty much suck and drain wadever's left in our already self collapsing and deteoriating brain. i guess i need to send my brain for reservist.

still trying to draw like linda bergkvist...

manipulative

hurhurhur...Shortest post ever...

kaoz

i have never had a worse lecture than today's by a certain sergeant...even mrs chia(the "hentai" economy NJ econs lecturer) is better...ha...

嗨...

一天又过了, 还有多7天的course...urgh...

hentak kaki, cepat hentak

urm...i dunno if my title is spelt correctly or not...but this is the first time i did this since...dunno when. sick...i would get heat stroke if the air conditioners dun work properly tomorrow.

freak

i guess i will be having nightmares tonight.

axe wound

ok, this post title will seem pretty familiar to all u 'mean girls' afficianados out there. it was said by janis ian: "...so everyone can see what an aex wound she really is..." well, i think that word is pretty cool...haha. nvm, i am feeling pretty much of an axe wound these few days too. urgh, for no reason wadsoever. ok, so dear whoever-is-reading-this, i am going to talk about...what? what was i going to talk about? shitified, forgot already. i think i am feeling pretty messed up these few days...or maybe just this weekend. i dunno why. first cuz i have yet to master the style of linda bergkvist. maybe i think cuz i am still an amateur. also, after reading a certain blog, i feel that i have too many regrets, who doesn't? why leh? i dunno also.

i have been trailer watching this afternoon...and really, there are no nice movies to watch in the near future, except for harry potter.

ok ok, back to the topic of being an axe wound...i guess i should find the official meaning of that word first. ok, there isn't an official meaning to it. so i guess tina fey invented that word. urgh, but what i mean is that i am in fact a mean person. i am a person full of hatred and jealousy, and whatever mean stuff u can thing of.

oh ya, finding a place to go out in the weekends here poses a serious challenge. first, wad is there to do? urghurghurgh.

yes!

exactly 2 months from now, harry potter and the goblet of fire will be released!!! yes!!!!

oh ya, i was comtemplating on going for a weekend trip to HK, friday evening fly to HK, then reach there at night. camp out at airport. next day, head over to HK disneyland. at night, check into their youth hostel, or can camp out at avenue of the stars...and watch the dazzling lights of HK island across victoria harbour. then sunday...go and eat and shop and eat. sunday evening, fly back to singapore...sounds fun eh? who wants to join moi? hahahhahaha...

Random thoughts of the week

being such a bo liaoz person i decided to do this post now when i actually cannto sleep. (actually i can la, but i just feel like typing). ok, FINALLY, the wireless connection in my comp is stable...and thank God, it's really stable. let's hope history doesn't repeat itself after i type this entry. urgh, suddenly i feel like typing one of those 'could have, should have' entries, but i think i better not cuz it's getting too cliche and it's not good for my health to think so much on stuff like that. like wad mr yuen(RV peeps u all remember him dun ya?) said to joanna(the senior who went on the NZ 2000 tour with us back in 2000): "joanna, it's unhealthy to procrastinate." i dunno how true that is. well, speaking of NZ, i want to go back to that place, it's a rather nice place ot backpack since it's an english speaking country, it's exchange rate is roughly similar to ours and that it has nice nice scenery. oh, u should have seen my face when i saw the southern alps rising from the horizon while i was in the tour bus. but one regret, or rather one room for improvement could be the food that was served. but it's rather reasonable for the price that you are paying. hmmm. i suddenly thought of something not too pleasant back then which involves mr yuen. i decided not to talk abt it and let history rest in peace. ya.

i am really thankful to God for giving me this vocation although it is only temporary.

ok, now i am going to talk abt my church stuff. so those not from my church or not interested can skip this. luckily tml's sermon is by zhang bao xia and not my granduncle aka pastor john hong again. i dunno, but he, i think is the cause of my brother not going to church regularly. i personally feel that pastor john is more concerned about our church having more memebers than doing his duty to preach to us. in fact, he harps on the fact that our church has such a miserable amount of members. i mean, it is obvious right? and the worst thing is that he cries rather often cuz of this issue(altho he doesn't do it that often now). it is definitely wrong of me to judge him like this but this is what i personally feel. haiz. lucky now there are 2 new chuan daos to help him in sort of chuan fu ying to the young pple that they have been tuitioning. hmmm. i hope that shall appease him. and judging from his sermons from the previous 2 weeks, i hope his attitude towards the falling members of our church has changed for the better. and please, dun be so sarcastic anymore ok.

gosh, i am so sleepy. i still haven't decided which uni i will go. hmmm...or rather, whether i should apply for NTU. i have this plan, but dunno if it will work. i do my bachelors degree in fine arts, majoring in visual comm in NTU, then go to AA to get a masters in illustration or advertising. well, cuz masters courses in AA are far more cheaper than their bachelors course. hmm. ya, or should i continue with archi then go to AA to do masters in illustration?

oh ya, since my stint at ammo base, i have lost 2kg. gotten my throat inflamed and my nose blocked. why? sitting in the air con room for the whole day. i guess i am allergic to air conditioners.

i have decided to say something here, but i later thought it would be wiser not to type it anyway.

miss-erable

well...i miss alot of things in life. yes. but this is not going to be those entries by your average NS guys saying that they miss freedom and bla bla bla. i miss those days in school. although i was not a mugger(not the chargeable ones tho), and i totally hated my JC study life, i miss those days(minus the exams and tests). so cliche sia. haha. but ya, i would rather have those days(again, minus the exams and tests) played back over and over again. well...this could very well mean that i am suited for the life of an educator. well, it's not that bad actually, come to think of it. when students get holidays, you get em too. hmmm...plus a slightly good but stagnant pay. hmmm. this is the route for me if i want to play it safe for the rest of my life. maybe be a professor even...ha. but the life whom i envy is linda bergkvist's. she gets to do to do the things she likes and seems happy. well, not only her, but most of the digital artists i have came across while surfing the net. i came across bobby chiu's website and work today. i really like his work not only cuz his style closely resembles mine but also cuz of the level of detail and humour he puts into each and every work(tho not every work is meant to humour). well, i really enjoy the life of these artists. haiz

anyway, someonce said that i will make a fun principal, cuz i will organise wacky events in school like halloween and etc. well, i will if i am made principal, provided that the students are all able to do well cuz halloween is in the end of year exams period. urgh...the feeling of miserable-ness surged into my brain. nvm, i shall go watch a HKDL report on fei cui wai seng toi. buaiz.

crap

ever since my stint as an RP at ammo base, i have been entertaining(or so i feel) myself at night by watching da chang jin and jing zi yu nie(another palace show abt palace pple fighting with one another).

i have been given another nickname at work: 风扇. well...the reason is obvious isn't it, cuz of my surname. wad really shocks me abt rp is that quite a few of them are bloody rich and drive nice nice cars. first hand ones summore. or so, maybe that's wad i have been led to think for the past 2 weeks. hmmm, next week i will be going to provost unit at yew tee area for RP course. urgh, ulu place again. ulu ulu ulu.

sadly, i haven't got the time to practice my digital art these few weeks. first, coming back late, and second, the comp in my room is damn bloody slow for photoshop applications. but i want to draw like linda bergkvist. she is damn zai. go visit her site anytime, her art rocks!

fffffff

i hate u wireless connection!!!! my LONG blog entry just got deleted! shit u!!!!

muahahaha

looks like HK diseyland is not doing as well after it's opening when u actaully have to PAY for the entrance now.

bloody...

...i have a flu...argh. and it won't stop. anyway, food for thought: if news are new, then are olds old news? lame...

hahaha

this is going to be a lame post but while watching 大长今 today, the word 大长今 sounds like 大肠金, which could mean 大便 or "shit".

i am still not done!

yes, thoughts of how singapore could have a disneyland triggered me to write this entry. urgh. btw, God bless america for today is Sept 11. ok, i think i will write it in an argumentative-social-studies-gp format.

disney parks have been charming and enchanting guests all over the world. from walt disney world in orlando, florida, to disneyland paris, france, visitors to these parks have been enthralled by the well themed and thought out attractions littered all over each park. i personally feel that this growing franchise of disney styled parks should be brought to places that hasn't expericenced the magic of disney parks. come tomorrow, hong kong will be one lucky city to claim the magic of disney within its territories. however, i am rather dismayed since this hong kong park could have been ours. here, in sunny, tropical singapore.

in the 1990s, a proposed park was supposed to be built at a sprawling plot of land at north western singapore. which, for your information, is probably where the likes of the singapore turf club is. what are the benefits you may ask. aplenty.

the construction of this park could answer the age old questions asked by many singaporeans: "eh, saturday u want to go where ar?" yes, i am one of those. that's it, singapore has not enough attractions to lure the young and fun-seekers. a disney park is one option. however, you may question the spending power of the young. the average amount of money that they spend on one saturday alone is sufficient to purchase at least 3 disney tickets, costing $50 each. and it would be a better alternative as compared to clubbing or pubbing, in my opinion that is. and a far greater and bigger place to people watch(if that is your intention). i believe that singapore is ready for a disney park. having being exposed to the characters and stories of disney tales for years. it is no doubt that a disney park here will do well. furthermore, it will attract neighbouring south east asian countries like the phillipines, indonesia and thailand, in view of the increase in disposable income of their people.

according to statistics, there are thousands of singaporeans spending thousands of dollars going overseas to other disney parks. well, for below hundred, they can experience the disney magic right at home. wouldn't that be great. in addition, it will reduce the outflow of tourism revenue into other countries.

now that the hong kong park is materialised, hopes for a similar park in singapore has gone up the smoke. (in other words, sim tia ar! it could have been ours!!!!!) ask yourself, why we should get a disney park? my answer would be in the words of a famous Beachboy's song: "wouldn't it be nice".

haiz...all cuz of the giam siap gahmen.

Random thoughts over the week

well...this column is back after a i-dunno-how-long haitus.

today i am most happy cuz i bought the long awaited "d'artiste: digital painting" book by ballistic publishing. thanks basheer for importing them in again. there were only 2 copies there when i went today. lucky i went there today, cuz basheer promised to call me but din. oh ya, saw yue han there today. that reminds me that i should make a trip to NJ to check out juniors' artwork.

seems that the previews for hong kong disneyland is a flop. i mean...that's wad i feel after reading those disappointing reports. sucks. disney stubbled right from the start. (shit, i think i may go on with this topic for quite a while) well, they shouldn't have built the park that small for a start. it sucks. comparing it's overseas cousins, which have an average distance from the entrance to the end of about 750m, HK's one is only abt 350. shrimpy eh? when the proposed 'lands' (for the unaquainted, they are the themed lands which make up the park) were announced, i was in shock. WTH, only 4 lands?! that exclamation was unanimous among other disneyphiles as well. more shocking is when the size of the park was made known. i think disney made a blunder, trust me on that. we kiasu chinese wouldn't want to spend some $50 on a rip off themepark. with a mini castle to top it all off too. hmmm...but i am tempted, to visit it, to see with my own eyes if the park is really that bad, or good. but come to think of it, i think it would be a wiser choice to save my mullahs for tokyo disney seas. why? cuz it is confirm worth ur mullahs. plus, tower of terror is debuting there next year! yesh! best disney ride ever! not for the faint hearted tho. i should not curse HKDL that much la. anyway, it's opening tml. OH! that's FAST!

watched napoleon dynamite this week. really funny show. some of u might find it lame if u dun understand the american sense of humour. a must watch.

damn you!

reading this made my blood boil!

it could have been ours...

yes...after reading Today just now, i realised that a disneyland deal could have been materialised in singapore in the 1990s. read the article here. if it was ours, wouldn't it be nice to say to ur frens "let's go to disneyland" in the weekends or the holidays. i wouldn't mind tho, being disneyphile, i think i would probably buy the annual pass so that i can literally pop into the themepark every day of the year. haha. but all these remains a dream and fantasy for many disneyphilic signaporeans, if there are any that i know of. heck the IRs la, i bet their themeparks won't beat disney's. they will probably come up with some low cost, low budget themeparks like escape(sorry for always arowing u ar, but i no choice cuz u choose to label urself as one when you know that u don't have the calibre). please, i don't want ferris wheels, bumper cars and those themeless coasters what not. those suck. a universal one will do fine tho, complementing the disney park in hong kong, like how you would find a universal park near a disney park. look at LA, there's universal studios hollywood and disneyland anaheim. then orlando, with universal orlando and walt disney world. the latest is japan, with universal osaka and tokyo disneyland. oh, not forgetting their european counterparts, there was(cuz now it's no longer under universal) universal's port of adventure in spain while paris have its disneyland paris. so, having a universal singapore(not style sounding enough hor?), or maybe it could be called universal studios SEA(south east asia). dunno la, but if it happens, better make it good and my dear singaporeans, dun be so giam siap k, cuz 快乐就好.

i can't help but feel proud of the chinese language

that is after watching loads of episodes of dae chang guem or 大长今 as it is known in chinese. basically, altho it's a korean show, the words that the characters write and read are freakin chinese! and the korean language and culture is largely influenced by the chinese language. how zai is that! haha. it's the most complex language in the world i think, cuz unlike other languages, which words are composed of standard alphabets, the chinese language has words that are different for each word. well, isn't that hard to learn u may ask. but, that's the beauty of it...it's so complex and amazing. i love it.

RV's IP better be good

yupz...good news for the school perhaps. but why is RV, like so many others jumping on the bandwagon? abit no originality tho. but nevertheless, as an ex art student in RV, i hope they will focus more on the visual art aspect of the curriculum. i heard earlier this year that RV is going to have an AEP program. hope that is true, and RV, despite being known as the poor school, will have enough funding for this program. but for this program to work, ms chan-ong theng choo must stay lor. haiz...haven seen her for so long already. should have gone back to RV today, but my body wasn't willing, too freakin aching already. but now i feel better la. just wasted one free day sia! shit.

but to do this, RV needs to shake off it's science niche reputation and be a more all-rounded school. hmmm, hard tho, when most students' are from conservative families that wants them to become engineers or doctors. that's when i was in there la, but i doubt it has changed much with the current students. but having to spend 6 years in RV would be great for me, if it had happened earlier...ha...means now they have to employ econs teachers, computing teachers la...haha. they can have mr tham siew thong...hahah, just kidding la. maybe he will be happy to jump ship since his son was from RV, but after teaching my JC class(with 7 Rv students) a year of maths, i doubt he will. haha, cuz teaching the RV pple in our class will prob make him vomit blood, and cuz of us, i think he will fear teaching RV students. he sommore said "我以为立化的数学很好的". ha, we proved him wrong...lol. hahahahhaha. damn funny then, and summore we were like sort of proud to fail maths...ahha. damn funny...lol

something unknown is sapping my life...

...away. it's weird to feel tired and sick after one week of slacking. oh wait...isn't that the cause? lol...but i feel damn tired now...esp in the neck area. i haven been feeling this way ever since BMT lor...

Desk King

i am unofficially the desk king of ammo base guard room...haha...cuz of my ability to do only desk jobs, ya...i have been given most slots at the desk. filling up names and ic nums of the pple that go into ammo base. haha. to the extent that i can recognise some of the regular pple liaoz. haha...but i still got alot to learn tho, cuz i screw up at times...but i am new la...haha, so cannot blame me. ha.

anyway, the pple at ammo base RP are rather nice pple...and one of them is like a friendster link. as in, i knew a lot, and i mean a lot of the people that he knows.

my block and blk 36 are getting a fresh new coat of paint, and it's bloody pink and orange in colour. not that i dun like it tho, but bloody because at night, the pink parts(which is the majority), gives out, or rather, exudes this reddish glow that u see shining haunted houses in horror films. i guess it's abit too red for me.

oh ya, i got to realise the meaning of 不是你的, 不要硬硬要. yes, very true. haha, give u an example, like...my fracture. ya, i actually chose to become a commander in those pink forms which they gave us during bmt. but fate decided otherwise. so here comes along the fracture. mean fracture, with the fracture, there is no hell of a chance that i will be able to go thru those hell-like courses of sispec or ocs. hahah. so ya, if it isn't yours, it's not yours, dun ever try to get it. but ya, why go thru hell to earn those mullahs? it isn't worth the suffering tho. sure, it's prestigious and bla bla bla, and u get to train and keep fit too. but all these will most prob be over if u do not intend to sign on and etc etc. and i feel that these courses should be given priority to those with intentions of signing on in the army. cuz SAF, u will be wasting the freakin taxpayers' money on those unloyal pple who are just there for the mullahs, completely wasting their time and the trainers' time there. this are just my honest opinions. u say i jealous also can but never mind. altho i am a very very very low ranking army personnel, i enjoy this life, ha, tho there are "shit work" to be done, well, it's not as if i am getting over paid by doing it.

better enjoy my day off tml. ha. i get so irritated when i see incompetent pple(not that i am saying i am very competent as well) getting admired and such. bah. shit.

i find that i have to justify wad i say cuz now blogs are getting very very unprivate, all cuz of the galmourisation of blogging and being famous for your blogs. it's pure shit lor. this may sound very very very cliche, but blogs, to me, are like personal websites, and for u to write ur own feelings. with the rise of xiaxue(and probably a fall now), alot of pple are turning to blogs to seek fame and fortune. not that there's anyhting wrong with doing that but, is it neccessary? haiz...it's damn confusing. the world's coming to an end like the bible had predicted.

bouts of jealousy are clouding my blood vessels, just like how the abundant midichlorians are squirming about darth vader's blood.

oh great

yup...oh great. today's getting better...the jobs getting much more easier...but my bloody feet...the boots are killing moi! the crease in the boots presses on the spot on my feet when i walk and then....PAIN!!! last week was ok tho. maybe last week was the begining only...since i only started wearing boots last week. but this has got nothing to do with the fracture k. it's damn pain when the painful part is being pressed. argh. think i gotta do something abt it. k, gotta fold me smart 4 now. i think i am coming down with a cough.

things are getting better

alas, i got something to do...desk job! altho i am not really talking much to the pple there...due to lack of common topics, i fared much better today in terms of striking conversations with them. i think the 3.5 months MC at home made me rather a hermit since i am mostly stuck with the pple i know. hahaha. urgh...heard that i have to go for an RP course later this month. i thought i cna downgrade lor...but i think i will. so i think the rp course will be like kind of wasted sia. the BSO was not bad la...but he reminded me of the accessor, 2nd LT J SEAH i had during the 1st day of sit test...urgh bad memories. but ya, my boot is killing my foot!!! it presses against on of the feet bone so now it hurts like siao...even when i am not standing. it feels as tho got one bulge in the bone waiting to explode at every surge of pain that i feel...sucky...

i cannot freaking blog yesterday!

urgh...the stupid internet in my room comp's down...so ya...take it as if i posted this yestedrday while in actual fact i did it at 1826hrs 060905.

urgh...i feel damn sian...

tml's the start of a another day at a new work place. i still dunno wad goes on there...

i stink of...

...bbq smell...just came back from class bbq at marina...haha...ate very little as usual cuz i dun really eat much at such DIY buffets. haha.

anyway, i really wonder why pple, me inlcuded will spend $7 worth of yusoff ishaks on a starbucks drink...or maybe even a coffee bean drink. cuz like sometimes, i will also wonder after i have bought the drink: "was it really neccessary?"

hmmm...more food for thought...

everyone's pretty much occupied with things...so sad. living in their tiny little bubble. i think i also la...but i think i have pretty little things to say...ha. i stink...smells of bbq smoke and sweat...heh.

last day...

1738: it's the last day in tekong for me, and i am on the ferry back to SFT as i am writing this. it's rather sad that while i got to know the manpower branch pple better, i have to leave the place already. oh well, 天下无不散之宴席. now i kind of looking forward to my new post at ammo base, at upper bukit timah road, as an rp. bid my farewells to the bronco company line pple, like mr eric(CQ) and sgt moses, PS hafiz. will will will miss them. I actually find tekong a rather nice place, if u are not in recruit(maybe some recruits like it too, i dunno). hmmm, oh ya, was thinking of turning tekong into an IR, haaha...the theme - the ARMY. hahahhaha. yup, happy birthday ps hafiz, thanks for training me and the rest of the platoon to be good soldiers. haha. I think after this entry, i will not write in this book(refers to the notebook that i used in the BMT) anymore and it shall be called "tekong memories". really...all the stuff written in there are all done in tekong...haiz...how i will miss it.

Additional stuff: they had games day today too, the bronco teeshirt was much more slick than my batch's. see lor...i shouldn't have left tekong so early back then. then schl 2 had 24km route march...in the rain summore...it was damn impressive to see all of them do cool down together as a schl in the parade square.

urgh...

feet damn pain...no mood to blog today. actaully i wrote something in my NS notebook...but yar...decide to keep it for tml...